|When The World Caves in whatcha gunna do?
||[Apr. 3rd, 2005|09:18 pm]
|[||State Of Mind
|[||Music To My Ears
|||||Jimmy Eat World- Clarity||]|
Wow long time since I posted anything serious about my life. So here it goes! About a month and a half ago or so I broke up with Joe as you all know. And i love him a lot but it's something that needed to be done, I need to experience Life I wasn't and still am not ready to settle down. Since then My life took a 180. I've been hanging out with all my friends again and it's something I missed so much, with Joe I never did that. I met some new great peopple...(for Example: JEN HILLOCK!!! I love you girl) and now shes my fucking best friend. I regained a lot of friendships that were lost including best friendships..I'm so happy. I love you all!!!!!! Now here it goes... the bitching part. Yeah I'm happy but there is a void. I'm lonely and depressed. Yeah I just said I was happy and I am when Im with my friends but when Im alone i ball my eyes out. It seems like every1 around me has a bf and a gf now and i just broke up with mine and I always feel like the odd ball out. I think I've been depressed the past 4 years it just comes and goes. it's not so much I want or need a boyfriend, more like a companion. I dunno maybe I'm talking out of my ass. And i always feel like people are annoyed of me like I'm a burden..I dunno AM I? Its my insecurity talking. I dunno on a better note...I moved into my sisters old room its much bigger then my old one. I love it! I get my license April 14th thank god. FINALLY i think I waited long enough. Till nest time PARTY THE FUCK ON PEOPLE!